AUGUST 2010 Newsletter Content
Presence in Conversation
Q: How do I maintain a sense of presence when I'm in the company of another person? How do I bring presence into conversation?
A: It's not easy. The moment you start talking, the two minds come together and so they strengthen each other. A flow starts, a stream of thought. A moment ago you were present, and then somebody starts talking. What applies here is the loss of space during the conversation. Both participants of the conversation have lost any sense of space. There are only the words, the mind, the verbalization, the stream of thinking that becomes sounds. They are taken over by that. It has its own momentum – almost a little entity, a stream, that doesn't want to end.
Often, it generates emotions in the body. That strengthens it, amplifies it. If the mental stream triggers emotions, which it often does, especially when talking about other people, what they did, failed to do, did to you, did to others, criticisms, gossip, all kinds of emotional [things], the ego comes in. When you can criticize another, the ego feels a little bit stronger. By diminishing another, in the delusional system of the ego, you have enhanced your own self-image a little bit. Any criticism of another is a part of that energy stream. And then emotions come, and they amplify the thoughts. It's the loss of space.
For you to regain space, without saying "I'm not talking anymore", one thing is necessary for you – which is the realization that you've lost space. Without that, there's nothing you can do – when you're so taken over by a stream of thought, that you don't even know you've been taken over by a stream of thought – there's nothing you can do. "Forgive them, for they know not what they do". They are unconscious. They are the stream of thought. And as the stream of thought, you don't want it to end – because you don't want your own end. Every entity wants to remain in form for as long as possible.
If there's the slightest realization that you've lost [space], at that moment you have a choice. What is your choice? Your choice is to bring some presence, some space, into the stream of thought. But how do you do that?
It's coming at you not only from within your own mind, but it's coming at you from the other person too. The awareness is there, and it may only last three seconds, and then it's gone again. So you have to use those two or three seconds, where you realize the loss of space, and do something in that space where you have some freedom to act. By a conscious choice, you take your attention out of thinking – but you have to anchor it somewhere else, otherwise it won't work. So you choose your breath, or your body, or some other sense perception around you that you become aware of. When you are actually talking to another person, it's probably easiest to either use your breath or your inner body.
Practice this beforehand, when conditions are easier, so that you can do it once it's necessary. Go into your inner body, feel that your energy field is alive. And you'll notice, you're not thinking anymore. You can still listen. The amazing thing is that you can listen to another person, without thinking, easily, beautifully.
You are listening, but part of your attention is on your energy field – so you've taken attention away from your thoughts. There is a sense of aliveness in the background.
It's ultimately formless; it's already the doorway into the formless. Feel that while you sit there and listen, and you've stepped out of the stream of thinking. Then, the quality of the interaction immediately changes. The other person may not consciously notice what's happening, and may carry on for a while. It also does not mean that you cannot respond anymore. But how you respond and the quality of your response changes, too. You are no longer contributing to the negative nature, which is often the case, in conversations.
A certain amount of stillness, then, will also be a part of the words that you speak. It's so subtle that the other person probably will not notice it, consciously. So hang on to the inner body, let it be the anchor, and then you become present. If you lose it again, if the other person says something challenging, then after a little while you remember – and you go back into the inner body. That's a powerful anchor, and then everything changes from there. It takes continuous practice.
When I was a sophomore in high school I weighed about 260lbs. All my life I had been relatively overweight and it always bothered me but never so much until then, so I decided to take the weight off. However, instead of loving myself enough to work positively toward a healthier lifestyle I instead began to identify with the tiny waist = happiness (popular western culture) view.
I took off the weight in about two years and thought, "this is it. I have achieved all that I wanted, I am here, I have arrived, now why am I still not happy?" My mother had been asking my father and I to listen to Eckhart's teachings for quite some time before then but never since that point did I really hear what was being said.
Not so preferably, I was inspired by suffering instead of using common sense to wake myself up. At any rate, when happiness was absent I started to feel very depressed. Without Eckhart's teachings, I really think that I would be in a much sadder and more ego driven state than I am today. After this awakening I began making my life about what I wanted it to be about and turned my despair into gratitude.
This realization happened about five years ago and since then I have studied his writings diligently, passed on the good word to several of my friends and family, and also went to Arizona with my mother to see Eckhart speak. Since my very fortunate suffering experience that has brought me closer to Echkart's teaching's and subsequently the power of presence, I have become involved with an intensive yoga program with a very helpful teacher.
Without the help of Eckhart and all of the people who are working to spread the good word, I would not have nearly enough stillness and determination to begin my yoga teacher training in the fall. Eckhart has very simply, accurately, and poetically provided a wonderful account of the unfolding nature of the universe and I am eternally grateful for this wonderful vehicle for stillness and presence.
Thank you all,
Alex from Wisconsin
"Every time you walk up and down the stairs in your house or place of work, pay close attention to every step, every movement, even your breathing. Be totally present."
"Whenever you meet anyone, no matter how briefly, do you acknowledge their being by giving them your full attention? Or do you reduce them to a means to an end, a mere function or role? A moment of attention is enough. You are no longer acting out a script, you become real."
"The quicker you are in attaching verbal or mental labels to things, people, or situations, the more shallow and lifeless your reality becomes, and the more deadened you become to reality, the miracle of life that continuously unfolds within and around you."
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